It’s one thing to actually force yourself to observe your writing habits. It’s harder to take the next step of understanding why you behave in ways that are obviously counter-productive, and then finding positive ways to get what these negative behaviours provide.
One of the problems of following these well-intentioned plans is that after a while we lose momentum. I started this process of understanding my patterns of behaviour three months ago. So did I fall off the wagon?
No, but the most valuable gains were things I hadn’t expected.
Firstly, the thrill of writing is back. I hadn’t lost the enjoyment of writing, but without realising it I had lost the bliss.
I started this process because I wanted to be more productive. Am I? Oh, YES. I’m creating more writing that I think is good, and I’m also producing more writing that’s terrible. But that stands to reason, and I’ve learned to just accept it.
It’s not possible for me to write every day, but because I now TRUST myself to write when I can, I don’t feel bad when I don’t.
But for the last few weeks something wonderful has happened as a consequence of the introspection, the persistence and the challenges of the last few months.
I started to JUST DO IT.
I know that’s not a new concept. I’ve read many authors who advise us to JUST WRITE, but as an analytical thinking personality I had trouble getting my head around it – or perhaps I should say feeling it.
Now I don’t think about writing. When I have time, I just sit and write. It’s freeing and light and exciting. It’s self-perpetuating.
But that ability didn’t come from willing it to be so. I would never have got to that place without the hard work of recognising my behavioural patterns and then replacing the negative behaviours with positive ones that gave me the same benefits.
This is a short post because I’ve got to get back to writing.
I’d love to hear your stories.